Warning Shot

"I feel something is coming,
Coming like a rhino on his hind legs
Is about to storm in and kick me
Down so hard the wind will be knocked
Out of my beating chest and I’ll finally be
Dead.

I’m either on the verge of a break through
Or the verge of a break down
I haven’t decided which one yet but neither
Can be good, especially in my condition
The condition of anxious, fear, depression and
Suicide.

I feel a certain numbing pumping through
My veins, as if the ice from outside is captivating
Itself into my body. I look fragile, I feel like death
Everything is not going the way I want it to
I hate this, I hate this, I hate this
I want it to stop

But at the same time I don’t.
Something good must come out of this,
It always does.
A break down during a break through, or a
Break through during a break down?
Whichever one leads me, I’ll take it."

Just wrote that, still a little shaky. Might need to clean it up a bit later...

Fuckers.