Eve nif it says a different time when I post this, it's 2am and I cannot sleep. I went to bed around 8-9-10pm with a headache and now I'm wide awake. It's more closer to 3am, but eh.
I'm back into therapy pretty much every week. It's okay, nothing special. What's helping me out is the fact that Mom and I have been getting along much better now. I just hope this keeps up.
What I do not appericate from her is the fact that she's still kicking me out, therefore I will have no where to live during spring semester. I've been trying to save up some money, but things like my car and food keep getting in the way. And now my medicine, which is insanely expensive is racking up a bill. These pills I take can cost up to 300 dollars!!! That's a fucking lot of money, okay? I don't have that just for one month of medication, so my psychatrist told me to get free samples once I get off my health care so I can still take my medicine cause... well damn.
I was at Buffalo Wild Wings tonight and they played Porcupine Tree. I cannot tell you how happy that made because I fucking love Porcupine Tree.
I have an internship next semester most likely, so we'll see what happens there as well.
I wish I had something to write about right now. I feel my head i starting to throb again, which means it wants to go back to bed. I wish I could post a writing or something, but they've been so personal lately that I really don't feel like sharing... for now at least.
And now to be completely random...
It's funny because I thought I knew this one person so well. Now, I feel like I don't even know who they are. I feel like it's my fault, when really it's theirs. They're the one who have changed into this. I miss them so much.
Showing posts with label Mother. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Mother. Show all posts
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Saturday, October 18, 2008
Is it okay if I bitch about my mother?
'Cause I'm gonna do it anyways. Okay, a little advice to you, if you see your son or daughter struggling with something they've never done before, don't bark at them, "Don't you know anything?!" Instead, how about you offer to help them? "Oh, wait hun, let me help you with that."
I mean come on! I was doing laundry at my house and I have one of these really adorable sweaterdress' that are in style now. I wore it out a few weeks ago, and I finally have enough things to make a "hand-wash" only load to wash it with, since I don't have a lot of delicate fabrics. So I take it out of the washing machine and it's still soaking wet. I go over to try and put it on a towel to absorb some of the excess water and I get water on the floor. Mother looks over at me and yells at me, "Don't you know anything?!" And, of course me being the bitch I am, start yelling at her to shut the hell up and how I know plenty of things. I was about to tell her to grow up and go get a goddamn college degree, when I decided to try and be nice and ask her, "Hey, look. How about instead of barking at me, and telling me something that we both know is false to try and help me?" So she helps me with the towel, and lays it out on the rack to dry. Mind you, in silence.
Really Mom? Did I have to just tell you to do that? She also told me that, "Wow, you have got quite a mouth on you!" NO SHIT. I live alone with you and you're such a goddamn bitch now a day I have to have a mouth to fight back to your constant attacks. For example: politics. The last presidental debate, dinosaur McCain was speaking and I started mimicking him and, get this, she tells me to have an open mind.
Wait, hold the fucking phone, are you serious? You just told WHITNEY KATHERINE to have an open mind? Are you fucking serious? So, I bark back, "Are you serious, Mom? You just told your own daughter, who you know is more open minded then you, to have an open mind? Have you done any research on this campaign? Have you read what they are saying? Do you even know what these people stand for?" She was silent. I walked away.
Then there's Sarah Palin. Holy Jesus fucking Christ. I told my mother when Sarah was on the news how I didn't like her, and how I thought she was stupid. My mother barked at me, "She's not stupid! She's smart!" I almost died right then and there. "Have you seen her resume? Have you heard her speak? Have you read what she is saying?" She was silent, again. And I walked away.
GAH, someone shoot me now. My Dad is home though, and I tell him all this and he smirks because he knows I'm right. I really wish I could move in with my Dad, but he lives in New Hampshire and soon my Mom will be joining him, so it's kind of useless.
I feel like my "mouth" is a result of all the shit I took from her when I was a teenager. I'm sick and tired of dealing with her crap, so instead of taking the blow, I send a blow back, which usaully causes her to fall down instead of me.
Oh, yeah, she's doing fine from her surgery. The constant attacks on me have become daily, if it isn't obvious. I don't think she likes it how she doesn't have any control over me anymore. Hun, I'm 21, there's nothing you can do. You can't ground me, so good luck trying.
I really can't wait to move out. I'm sorry I didn't get married when i was 19. I'm almost done getting my bachelor's and then I'll be getting my masters, and possibly a PhD. I'm sorry I have more fun then you do when you were my age. I'm sorry you don't even have an associates when I keep telling you to use your experience from the library to use it towards getting some sort of degree in library science. Stop bitching how you want me to be a librarian because you can't be one. Yes, you can. Just get your ass back to school. It doesn't matter if you're 59. I have friend's whose parents are starting their masters and they're in their 50's as well. Stop being embarassed and just go for it. Be strong for gods sake. I hate seeing weak willed people, but that's a whole different story.
Kay, after a quick dinner break, I have admitted to my parents how I have been researching womens literature intensly (mind you, I'm taking a course in womens writing), and how I have become interested in the civil rights movement. My Mother went into the other room when I started talking about Malcolm X, and yelled back, "He was radical!" "Is that why you don't like him, Mother?" "Yeah." Oh okay, so someone fights for what they believe in and speaks their mind so you don't like them. Good job being open-minded, you son of a bitch. But anyways, my Dad sat with me and listened to me and said his point of view, which was he was really glad that I was starting to get into these things. He knows that when I believe in something, I research it and am passionate about it. I search for answers, I am engrossed in truth. I'm not an idiot, okay? My Father knows that and still refers to me to his mother when I get like this. Another thing is that when I start talking about grad school my Mom doesn't pay attention, but yet my Dad does. I just find that funny.
Oh yeah, my Dad was trying to explain baseball to me before dinner. The Rays and Red Sox are going at it to see who plays Philly in the world series. I mean, if I live in Boston I hafta be a fan of the Red Sox. My sister is a huge Yankees fan so this should be fun :) I mean, I'm a huge hockey fan, have been this way since I was in 8th grade, and my team has been the Red Wings for as long as I can remember. Yzerman is going to be coaching the 2010 Olympics, fyi. Soo glad I got his jersey before he retired...
To finish this off, since I have to go get ready to go out, I would like to say that according to dictionary.com, the Spanish word of the day is direccion, which means direction; address. I don't know why, but I find it amusing that they have a spanish word of the day.
I mean come on! I was doing laundry at my house and I have one of these really adorable sweaterdress' that are in style now. I wore it out a few weeks ago, and I finally have enough things to make a "hand-wash" only load to wash it with, since I don't have a lot of delicate fabrics. So I take it out of the washing machine and it's still soaking wet. I go over to try and put it on a towel to absorb some of the excess water and I get water on the floor. Mother looks over at me and yells at me, "Don't you know anything?!" And, of course me being the bitch I am, start yelling at her to shut the hell up and how I know plenty of things. I was about to tell her to grow up and go get a goddamn college degree, when I decided to try and be nice and ask her, "Hey, look. How about instead of barking at me, and telling me something that we both know is false to try and help me?" So she helps me with the towel, and lays it out on the rack to dry. Mind you, in silence.
Really Mom? Did I have to just tell you to do that? She also told me that, "Wow, you have got quite a mouth on you!" NO SHIT. I live alone with you and you're such a goddamn bitch now a day I have to have a mouth to fight back to your constant attacks. For example: politics. The last presidental debate, dinosaur McCain was speaking and I started mimicking him and, get this, she tells me to have an open mind.
Wait, hold the fucking phone, are you serious? You just told WHITNEY KATHERINE to have an open mind? Are you fucking serious? So, I bark back, "Are you serious, Mom? You just told your own daughter, who you know is more open minded then you, to have an open mind? Have you done any research on this campaign? Have you read what they are saying? Do you even know what these people stand for?" She was silent. I walked away.
Then there's Sarah Palin. Holy Jesus fucking Christ. I told my mother when Sarah was on the news how I didn't like her, and how I thought she was stupid. My mother barked at me, "She's not stupid! She's smart!" I almost died right then and there. "Have you seen her resume? Have you heard her speak? Have you read what she is saying?" She was silent, again. And I walked away.
GAH, someone shoot me now. My Dad is home though, and I tell him all this and he smirks because he knows I'm right. I really wish I could move in with my Dad, but he lives in New Hampshire and soon my Mom will be joining him, so it's kind of useless.
I feel like my "mouth" is a result of all the shit I took from her when I was a teenager. I'm sick and tired of dealing with her crap, so instead of taking the blow, I send a blow back, which usaully causes her to fall down instead of me.
Oh, yeah, she's doing fine from her surgery. The constant attacks on me have become daily, if it isn't obvious. I don't think she likes it how she doesn't have any control over me anymore. Hun, I'm 21, there's nothing you can do. You can't ground me, so good luck trying.
I really can't wait to move out. I'm sorry I didn't get married when i was 19. I'm almost done getting my bachelor's and then I'll be getting my masters, and possibly a PhD. I'm sorry I have more fun then you do when you were my age. I'm sorry you don't even have an associates when I keep telling you to use your experience from the library to use it towards getting some sort of degree in library science. Stop bitching how you want me to be a librarian because you can't be one. Yes, you can. Just get your ass back to school. It doesn't matter if you're 59. I have friend's whose parents are starting their masters and they're in their 50's as well. Stop being embarassed and just go for it. Be strong for gods sake. I hate seeing weak willed people, but that's a whole different story.
Kay, after a quick dinner break, I have admitted to my parents how I have been researching womens literature intensly (mind you, I'm taking a course in womens writing), and how I have become interested in the civil rights movement. My Mother went into the other room when I started talking about Malcolm X, and yelled back, "He was radical!" "Is that why you don't like him, Mother?" "Yeah." Oh okay, so someone fights for what they believe in and speaks their mind so you don't like them. Good job being open-minded, you son of a bitch. But anyways, my Dad sat with me and listened to me and said his point of view, which was he was really glad that I was starting to get into these things. He knows that when I believe in something, I research it and am passionate about it. I search for answers, I am engrossed in truth. I'm not an idiot, okay? My Father knows that and still refers to me to his mother when I get like this. Another thing is that when I start talking about grad school my Mom doesn't pay attention, but yet my Dad does. I just find that funny.
Oh yeah, my Dad was trying to explain baseball to me before dinner. The Rays and Red Sox are going at it to see who plays Philly in the world series. I mean, if I live in Boston I hafta be a fan of the Red Sox. My sister is a huge Yankees fan so this should be fun :) I mean, I'm a huge hockey fan, have been this way since I was in 8th grade, and my team has been the Red Wings for as long as I can remember. Yzerman is going to be coaching the 2010 Olympics, fyi. Soo glad I got his jersey before he retired...
To finish this off, since I have to go get ready to go out, I would like to say that according to dictionary.com, the Spanish word of the day is direccion, which means direction; address. I don't know why, but I find it amusing that they have a spanish word of the day.
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